trust

last year was hard, very hard. I really struggled just to see the light each day. Now it's a new year and I'm trying not to dwell on the things that happened last year. My hardest struggle is trust. Let me start by saying that I don't have any really friends, or anyone to really confide in. I feel very alone all the time.

Here's why I don't trust anyone, Last year CFS (child and family services) was called on me three times every time it was because someone else had something they were trying to prove. I was accused of beating my daughter (which NEVER happened) I was also accused of putting my children in danger. If you know me You know That I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR MY KIDS. All in all cfs realized that all I really want is what is best for my children and so all the claims were dropped because it was obviously not true. Now the question is how do I get past this and trust anyone again? Right now I trust no one because the first thing people do is lie about me and try to get my kids taken away because they know that's how they can hurt me.

 It got so bad last year that I actually had to take 3 weeks of stress leave from my job because of this.. I need to figure out how to get past this..... the question is how???