Friday, April 29, 2011

Dear Ashton

Dear Ashton,
Life has not always been easy for you and I , but through it all you and I were together. I wouldn't change any of it cause I love you. I know that this last year has been VERY hard for both of us, alot of what we have been through is cause of some of the choices we have made. It doesn't matter though cause I love you. Some of it is because of outside influence. Again it doesn't matter cause I love you. There have been things said and done by both of us that have hurt our relationship, and we can't seem to find our way back. It doesn't matter because I love you. I want to have a good relationship with you cause I love you. I want to be able to pick up the phone and chat with you, but I can't cause your angry and won't talk to me. But I still love you. The last time we talked you said VERY hurtful things to me. But I still love you. I want you to be able to come over and follow the rules, not not speak disrespecting everyone. Cause I love you. I want you to be successful in all you do. Cause I love you. I want you to know that I am here for you when you decide that I'm worth it, cause I love you. Mostly I want you to know that no matter what I will be here for you when you graduate, when you Marry, when you have kids, when you sick, whenever you need me, even if you don't want me to because I love you. I also want you to know that I am not proud of some of the things you have said and done..........but I am proud of you, but most of all I want you to know that.......


Thursday, April 21, 2011

if I was a drinker.......

I would be getting drunk right now.

we moved recently, I called the government offices to let them know. Someone screwed up so I did not receive my child tax payment. Normally not a huge deal. We can manage without it. However this month of all months. I NEED that money (but I can't get it) You see, my kids prescription is sitting at the pharmacy waiting to be picked up (no it is not covered by insurance it's "herbal" so it doesn't count....never mind that it is saving they're lives who cares still not covered) and we are talking $250.00 worth of drugs. No I don't have that right now. Not only that but we had work done on our car and it is sitting in the shop waiting for us to come get it ( can't didn't get the money) the car insurance that's coming out of our account funds to cover it. All because someone in a high paying government job F***** up. How oh how will I fix this??

Where is that damn money tree.....I NEED $250.00 just for a little while please oh please money tree.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

busy days

It has been VERY busy around was spring break last week and myself and my sisters took all the kidlets to the museum of man and nature. We all had great fun.
Though mister Trayten slept through alot of it :-) the only thing missing was my Ashton. However we did family pics and Ashton was there they are GREAT!!! I wish I could post pics but my scanner is not working!! :-( They turned out very well and I love them!!

what you don't see in this pic is that Trayten spit up all over as this was snapped!!

Owen LOVED these pillows my sister in law kept piling them on him and he thought it was great!!

the kidlets checking out the exhibits!!

the five kids all together!!

The other thing I have been busy with is my fabric stash.....Having moved 4 times in a year (ouch that's ALOT of moves!!) the fabric was EVERY where!!! Not any more!!!

this is what I did: the closet closed then:
you get this when opened.......
then the fabric is wrapped on cardboard "bolts"

the small bolts are fat quarters and samll pieces, the larger bolts are larger then fat quarter sizes.