Friday, July 29, 2011


Recently I was asked what do you believe?? In the middle of a conversation about faith.......I had to stop and think about that for a second. Now I grew up in a christian home. I went to church EVERY Sunday. As a teen I was baptized, I believe Jesus died for my sins......I believe that Jesus rose again. Jesus is my savior. However I feel betrayed, did he forget about me? Why do all the bad things happen to me? Now I'm not talking about bad things, like this horrible tooth ache I've been dealing with, I'm talking a dead child......children with a horrible disease.......a child who can't stand me most days. I WANT A BREAK. I want to feel not forgotten. I want to feel like I belong in a church, I want, I want, I want........Maybe some of this is my problem I want and I haven`t given God the opportunity to show me what he wants. Really never even thought about that until I wrote this...........Really just now.............Maybe I need to start asking what do you want from me?

Light bulb moment?

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

weight loss

I have started a weight loss journey.....I purposely didn't tell folks when I started because I didn't wanna flop. However I did start losing some weight 5 lbs to be exact.......I'm thrilled. I started with baby steps, 3 weeks ago I stopped drinking regular pop (I try not to drink pop at all but sometimes I drink diet), then I started to walk stairs when I can instead of taking the elevator. I won't tell you how much I weigh though I will tell you I have roughly 80 to 100 lbs to lose. Besides the 5 pounds that are gone I have noticed that I have ALOT more energy, So in the grand scheme of things 5 lbs is not alot, but still it's 5 pounds less then 3 weeks ago!!! Woot...woot..... I'm thrilled hopefully I can keep it up.