another year gone by

Miss. J turned 9 on Feb 12, I know I'm REALLY behind. Anyhow since I'm doing the things I love about you It's time for J's.
9 things I love about J:
1. Her shy quietness......it's not always about being seen and heard.
2. her willingness to learn how to do new things
3. the silly things she does in her sleep (she's a sleep walker)
4. her love for her big sister.
5. her silly laugh, and ability to be really silly.
6. that she's always willing to take on responsibility.
7. how she always wants to hold the new "baby"
8. her love of animals, she could get the wildest animal to trust her!
9. I love that God choose me to be her Mom!

alone

I always feel so alone, maybe it's mostly my part but I really am alone. I really have no friends again part of this is my fault, I have not called people or not gone out with people. But then there have been times that I have tried and was rejected. How many times does one try before they give up?? I really feel alone. I have lost my closest friend of 15 years over a battle of who's the better Mom. I have no friends in the city because I have been away for 10 years and all the friends I had in Selkirk are there, and I feel like I've let those friendships slide, heck most of them don't talk to me anymore. Maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself, I know that alot of this is my fault, however I did spend a whole year working overnights and while I did that I almost felt like I didn't have a weekend.....my time was always spent trying to sleep or trying to catch up on sleep. Now that I work days I suddenly have no one. Not only that but my husband works evenings most of the time so i don't have a car to get around. Sure I could drop him off but do I really want to get all the kids up at 3 am to pick their dad up at work? I wish I still had my Gracie she was always there, but even that is gone.

Now the real question is how do I make/re build friendships??

I'm at a loss......all I know is I'm REALLY lonely, I don't even feel like I have someone I could call to chat with!!

fabric friday...........a day late :-)

This is my first finished project of 2011:


I really like the pattern, I don't like how it's hanging it seems off somehow, I'm gonna try putting a wooden dowel on the bottom as well as the top and hopefully that helps! The flowers are 3-d flowers. Lie I said I really like it but am somewhat disappointed by it to. Hopefully the next project turns out better.


I have also included a picture from last weeks move,

yup we're rednecks :-)

meds!

I received a call today from the children's doctor, the news was not good. Both kids had fairly high oxalate output, Tony's was at 900 and J'naya's is 2100. The normal is 500. This is a concern. Now are the levels high because they aren't actually taking the meds ( We have caught J flushing hers, or hiding them in her sleeve) or is it because the meds are no longer working?? The plan is to watch them like hawks to make sure the meds are making into their bodies and retesting them in 1 month. I hope it's cause they aren't taking them. I do not want my kids to have to face a transplant!! I have also brought in a new "tool" to make sure the kids take their meds at the right dose EVERY day. Basically it's a white board/cork board, I used little zip lock bags on the bags is the first letter of the child's name and a number ( I.E. J-2 would be J'naya's for the second) so each day the child takes the bag for that day and it has all the meds they need in it. This way if either one misses I know who!! I hope this will make it easier to do. It is also on the wall which will make it noticeable and harder to forget. I also made some of these baggies to leave with my parents for sleepovers so that even at Grandma and Grandpas they get their dose!!



that's what it looks like. It's one months worth of medication ( we won't mention the cost all of which IS NOT covered by insurance) We will be offering a reward at the end of the month for all the days the meds were taken!! I hope this works!!