Tuesday, February 8, 2011


I always feel so alone, maybe it's mostly my part but I really am alone. I really have no friends again part of this is my fault, I have not called people or not gone out with people. But then there have been times that I have tried and was rejected. How many times does one try before they give up?? I really feel alone. I have lost my closest friend of 15 years over a battle of who's the better Mom. I have no friends in the city because I have been away for 10 years and all the friends I had in Selkirk are there, and I feel like I've let those friendships slide, heck most of them don't talk to me anymore. Maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself, I know that alot of this is my fault, however I did spend a whole year working overnights and while I did that I almost felt like I didn't have a weekend.....my time was always spent trying to sleep or trying to catch up on sleep. Now that I work days I suddenly have no one. Not only that but my husband works evenings most of the time so i don't have a car to get around. Sure I could drop him off but do I really want to get all the kids up at 3 am to pick their dad up at work? I wish I still had my Gracie she was always there, but even that is gone.

Now the real question is how do I make/re build friendships??

I'm at a loss......all I know is I'm REALLY lonely, I don't even feel like I have someone I could call to chat with!!


Miriam said...

Just letting you know that we think of you and pray for you regularly at Bible study. You can call to chat with me anytime! I really enjoyed our visit the last time you came out. Really hoping to see you this weekend!

ter@waaoms said...

Hey I live in the city, and I like to think that we're friends. So give me a shout and let's set up a coffee date!