i struggle

To say I struggle is an understatement, i have been told bu to many people who are supposed to be friends and have no idea what is actually going on that I'm a bad mother. So I struggle i have two children who take a lot of medication to stay healthy and it' s a struggle to get those meds into their system. I have a child who never eats a full meal instaed he grazes and i feel like people judge me when i don't make him eat a full meal. What they don't understand is he has ALWAYS done this from the tome he was born it took him so long to eat he was always eating.... this is why he is the way he is.... if he doesn't "eat" he snacks healthy he lobes apples, snap peas and baby carrots.
So I struggle.... I may not be the worlds best mom but I love my kids no matter what and i want whats best for them...

  This morning i got up and looked out my window and saw a car parked the wrong way on the road infront of my house, my first thought someone is probably mad at me and called CFS on me...... is that what your first thought would be?  Well it was mine in the last few years i have been accused of so many horrible things and had so many people try to get my kids taken away that i' m not really enjoying these years as kids I'm more counting the days till they are 18 and no one can call to have the taken away... that is 10 more years.....Hope i can hang on that long...

 Any wonder that I have been un employed for 12 weeks and have done little More then hide in my bedroom ?

 I'm really struggling here....