Sunday, August 23, 2009

sob stories

Apparently my life is all about sob stories and beinging able to one up people with my sob stories. Cause losing my son is just a sob story, no folks that actually happened my son was born not breathing I got to hold him for a few hours and then he was gone forever. I miss him!
My children having PH1 a sob story, I guess me sitting in the ultrsound department at childrens all afternoon on thursday a figment of my imagaintion, I guess seeing stones in my sons kidney. Not real. The appoinment where the doc sat us done and told us what was wrong I guess that didn't happen!!! LISTEN TO ME I WISH I DIDNT HAVE THESE STORIES.
I wish I could hug my angel baby and tell him how much I love him and miss him,

what I wouldn't give to sit up all night with him,

I wish I didn't have this story.

I wish PH1 didn't become a part of my life,

I wish I didn't have to take my children to childrens hospital every 6 months to check kidney function.

I wish I didn't have to always worry about the next bd thing to happen to my babies.

I wish I could have the diease instead of them.

I wish I didn't have to have an emergency reponse plan for the children at school.

I wish I didn't have to worry about them getting pain medication in the ambulance on the way to the hospital if the kidney stone attack happen when I'm not around.

I wish my biggest problem was a five month old who didn't sleep.

I wish these were sob stories intended to gave sympathy rather then real life.

1 comment:

Ter said...

ugh, I hear you!

I have a feeling that some people think I complain for attention. Well, I'd rather have positive attention. I'd rather be talking about how my daughter is driving me crazy the way a 3 year old should be. not that she's been dead for 3 years. I did not choose this life I am living.... nor are you.... why do people assume we are just having a blast complaining about this.

People complaining when they have nothing to complain about, those are the people who are doing it for attention. Those are the "sob stories"

Ugh, I'm sorry people are treating you this way these days. :( I'm here for you too.