sob stories

Apparently my life is all about sob stories and beinging able to one up people with my sob stories. Cause losing my son is just a sob story, no folks that actually happened my son was born not breathing I got to hold him for a few hours and then he was gone forever. I miss him!
My children having PH1 a sob story, I guess me sitting in the ultrsound department at childrens all afternoon on thursday a figment of my imagaintion, I guess seeing stones in my sons kidney. Not real. The appoinment where the doc sat us done and told us what was wrong I guess that didn't happen!!! LISTEN TO ME I WISH I DIDNT HAVE THESE STORIES.
I wish I could hug my angel baby and tell him how much I love him and miss him,

what I wouldn't give to sit up all night with him,

I wish I didn't have this story.

I wish PH1 didn't become a part of my life,

I wish I didn't have to take my children to childrens hospital every 6 months to check kidney function.

I wish I didn't have to always worry about the next bd thing to happen to my babies.

I wish I could have the diease instead of them.

I wish I didn't have to have an emergency reponse plan for the children at school.

I wish I didn't have to worry about them getting pain medication in the ambulance on the way to the hospital if the kidney stone attack happen when I'm not around.

I wish my biggest problem was a five month old who didn't sleep.

I wish these were sob stories intended to gave sympathy rather then real life.